My side of the Journey within his

I was SCARED!!! No one could see or know that though. That is where the walking came in. I had started walking to keep myself sane in all things marriage, and cancer, but the escape from the kids and Lloyd out on that highway was all I felt like I could control. That highway was the time I could cry, scream and at one point fall to my knees with the weight of what it takes to carry ALL of it around every day. On the outside, thanks to the many miles I was walking, I looked stronger and better than I had in Years. On the inside I was working on not falling apart.  Cancer is Heavy, but the saying goes “ god only gives the biggest challenges to the strong” so far I have survived all that he has given me. What I’ve not said yet is that I am a twin, I had a beautiful twin sister, Christie, and she would have been such a rock/lifeline throughout all of this. I say would have because in 1998 I lost her to a massive heart attack. We were 24…I had had the fear about something tragic happening, not knowing what that fear was until the day she passed and my whole world Stopped!

Until next time

Val C